Do you know what I love about having days like today? It's almost all about me. I know it sounds selfish but I really do think everyone needs to give themselves a lot of care and attention. I almost always forget about my needs and that is why my diet goes out the window and that is why every few months I have a small breakdown and I end up feeling depressed.
The sun was beautiful today and it was a perfect wake up call to food shopping and spending time with the family. I didn't manage to eat my healthy breakfast because my lie in turned into more sleep! I was in trouble because they all wanted to have the cheap 99p fry up at Ikea before shopping and so when I got there I was nervous to say the least. In the end I chose to eat a brown bread roll, with some marinated swedish fish thing... I know what you're thinking too. I did my best and that's all I have to say about that nasty slip up! The good thing is that I said no to hash browns (which is almost unheard of for me) and no to milk in my earl grey!
Anyhow after buying lots of nice lovely things (including a new beautiful aubergine purple throw for my bed and little preserving jars) and stocking up the now bursting fridge full of healthy goodies, I continued the day with lots of cleaning and organising. Tomorrow I will continue to tidy up and see my Godmother for her birthday dinner - it's vietnamese and I think I won't have too much trouble!
The last thing I have to report is something quite special.
I remember when I was really into the whole vegan routine I was constantly happy, content, calm and I was always drifting about in this sense of strange euphoria. I loved it and it's what I've been searching for since eating my horrible diet recently has made me quite stressed out. Today I watched lots of new videos that I have missed out on Heather's HealthyVegan Youtube channel and I started to get that feeling again! Perhaps it's contagious but I know for sure now that I am much happier vegan and when I am, I no longer have that horrid guilt when I'm eating and there is no anxiety related to what I'm consuming. I even learned how to make my own rice and oat milk in which I will try once I finish all the ones in the fridge.
I have to say, things are looking up.
I'm going to bed quite pleased tonight, I know tomorrow I will be even more focussed. I am visiting a korean supermarket tomorrow so maybe I can stock up on some interesting things for my kitchen!