Wednesday, 2 February 2011

Success....?

"Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm."

~ Sir Winston Churchill

Hello all,

It's been a whirlwind of madness since mid-Autumn and I'm feeling a bit whoozie from it all.  Lucky for me, school is finally out as I handed in my last essay last week and now I am just committed to working five days a week, helping out at my own shop and blogging.  Well, that's what I thought until I looked into the mirror and realised I still haven't dropped anymore weight!  So here I am, re-committing myself and trying to be as positive about it.

So what's been happening on the diet front?  It's been a bit of a shambles to say the least, as you may have noticed I tried to make a come back after Christmas having put on a couple of pounds and then failed.  I'm back here today, back to the original weight I was when I took my hiatus and I can't say I'm feeling completely confident.
What's happened is that I've given into a lot of my temptations, all besides meat as I'm still a vegetarian, but I'm finding fats and dairy in my gob constantly.  I'm always snacking due to the sheer boredom at work and when I eat, I eat quite a lot because I'm hungry.  I know I must be eating around 2000 calories or so having maintained weight (or sometimes gain) and it's got to stop....why am I consuming these extra 800 or so calories? 

I have to say, deep inside, I'm still the same snack-loving girl I once was.  I deal with boredom/anger/stress/pain/sadness with food and it never seems to stop.  For a while back, I used exercise to really help me but having a ten hour day at work really makes me exhausted.  I find myself sitting there thinking of ways to lose more weight and before I know it, I'm eating again!   I keep wondering and wondering and just know that time isn't going to wait for me to wonder anymore!

So I'm back on a very low calorie eating lifestyle and I will fit in exercise whenever I can as much as I can. This morning I realised that my skipping rope has just been sitting there for a long time so I'm going to really give that a go.  I really miss running and I just wish I could go, perhaps I will muster up the courage to go soon.  I keep feeling so stressed out about it, I wish this wasn't giving me such pain.  How was it so easy last time?  I need to find that motivation and willingness again. 

This is how I want and plan my life to be from now on:

-Wake up at 7am
Brush teeth, dress, apply cycling friendly make-up, drink water and fruit (for energy), pack protein shake and lunch
-Leave for work at 8.15am
-Get to work at 8.45am
-Leave work at 7.15pm
-Arrive home at 8.45pm
-Prepare dinner and lunch for the next day
-Jump rope for 20 minutes, rest and shower
-Cook and have dinner
-Sleep
-Wake up at 7am

Somehow on my days off I will try to incorporate some running or something.  But do you see how jam packed my life is and how difficult it is to maintain that everyday?  I want to be realistic and know that it's not possible to be perfect everyday but I feel like time is not allowing me anything less than perfection. 

We will see how I get on.  Also I would love to commit myself to blogging here as much as usual.  I know for a fact that blogging/vlogging really helps me focus and the moment I lose that, I lose my way.  I am asking for a lot of support at the moment and right now, I need to stand on my own two feet.

I shall report back how it is all going and with a new stats report this coming Monday.  I haven't failed because I haven't given up, I owe this to myself and my body, so here is to another big push for a better and slimmer Helen.

Much love xxx

4 comments:

  1. Don't stop believing... I am just the same. I have just reached my 1 month anniversary on slimming world and i lost no pounds this week and lost all motivation. But don't give up! you can do it! =)

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  2. Hey girl,
    I've came across your vlogs as I've been surfing youtube during work out of boredom. Your slimming plan has really intrigued me not because I'm overweight or anything like that. I like to see how people transform and the things they learn through a disciplined and healthy lifestyle.
    I know one thing that really motivated me when I started on my journey to a healthy lifestyle was opening up an excel spreadsheet and doing up a schedule for every day of the week.
    I had been in the fitness industry for a year and have many friends who are personal trainers who help me with my diet and exercise. I don't really rely on them too much, because I find that if I made up a plan myself, I would stick to it more.
    I know sometimes its hard, a simple diet change is not going to help weightloss. It's an overall change of lifestyle. I know I needed help when I first began my journey and I can lend a hand if you ever had any questions, even though I'm all the way here in Australia.
    My email is jenni_yiu@hotmail.com~
    Seeing my surname, yes I am from HK but have grown up in Australia, I guess you can class me as an ABC =)
    I don't have a blog, or vlog neither am I famous. I simply saw your youtube posts and blogs and would like to help. If you would like to see my daily schedules please do let me know via email. If not, you can always go to something that I actually grab some of my ideas from and I get most of my exercise routines from and its this website: www.bodyrock.tv
    You can find body rock on youtube as well~ I'm sure you will get alot from it =) Good luck with your goal! ABC from Australia is cheering you on! =D

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  3. Hello from Canada! I read your blog(s) and watch your YT videos. I'm also on my own journey of working on improving myself through diet and exercise. Just want to say that you're not alone-- it's comforting knowing there is someone like you out there who also feels and experiences exactly the same things I do-- like we're almost teammates or something. :)

    Your confidence and positivity inspires me. I think the most important thing is to keep moving forward towards our goals no matter what happens...

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