Recently I've been thinking about my next move in life whilst trying to get on with this strange phase I'm in and it occurred to me that everything seems to be a bit of a haze. I know where I want to go but I am just at lost of what I want to do. My motivation for it is also dwindling and I'm left really wanting to make things happen without knowing how.
I've recently finished university and having got my 2:1 BA Hons degree and said goodbye to education for good, I'm left finding my next stepping stone with great difficulty. The only problem is is that they're everywhere and I don't know which one to step on because it either might fall through or I'll end up on the wrong path. I keep worrying about it and whether to take this next leap of faith. I want to believe in myself but I'm constantly worried about failure. What if I work towards something and it goes wrong? Would I have wasted time? Would I be less of a daughter? Will I be poor for the rest of my life?
After much headache and restless nights I've finally come to the conclusion that if I just go through the motions and keep on where I am, wondering about 'what ifs' then I'm never going to get anywhere. I want to be a bridal make up artist and I want to be slim. If I can achieve those two things in this year then I will have done well.
I'm off to write my plan for the next year and we will see what happens. As that horoscope says,. I'm freakishly optimistic all the time...sometimes to my detriment... all I know is that if I'm going in the right direction, I should really just keep going...
Good luck to you all!